Meerkat Prompts: What would you Change?
What is one thing you would change about yourself?
Where do I begin? There are many elements of myself I would change if given the option, both of a physical nature, and a psyhcological one. Then again, I am broadly-speaking more accepting of myself as I am than when I was younger. The aspects of myself I am most inclined to shift are the ones I am least able to alter.
For example, I have dyspraxia. This is something that affects my concentration and focus. My brain uncontrollably lurches from one subject to another, often at break-neck speed. I can start composing a post about trains in my head, and in the 10 minutes it takes me to walk to work I’ve switched to sci-fi battles, political debates, and cooking shows. My power to pick a thread and follow it through is limited, and requires me to have to really stop and focus. Even then I can struggle, and I can consequently grow frustrated with myself. If I could cure my dyspraxia tomorrow I wouldn’t hesitate, and who knows what I might be capable of with unhindered clarity. Unfortunately dyspraxia can only be managed, not cured.
It may be overly simplistic to state that all my neurosies come from this, and in some respects it would serve to excuse me of responsibilty for errors of judgement without any actual merit, but nonetheless, I might not have made as many silly little mistakes if I did not have dyspraxia. We’ll never know.
It’s hardly the only thing I’d change. How about being physically fitter? That’s certainly on me! I’ve never been sporty, and can’t ever claim to have been a stunning, strong meerkat. Then again, I don’t think I’m especially ugly, so I guess that’s something. I am not a gym creature, and I don’t think I ever will be.
I wouldn’t mind being better at letting go. Sometimes I let people and situations get under my skin, and try as I might I find it hard to resist issuing a feisty response. Trolls seek attention, and for the most part I am gradually decoupling from the worst of them.
Ultimately, I have to revert back to my first thought. Relieving myself of my dyspraxia would be life-changing. I’ll settle for having it be manageable.
